So it’s gotten to the point where I’m so excited about this community and the babas and artists N the artistry the work the talent everything and I talk about it so much that my daughter just told me to leave her alone and I’m boring her; my other half has taken to ignoring me so rude he is about my new love-this community/hobby, and I just feel so alone in my own house. It’s sad kuz my 10-year-old daughter used to be my BIGGEST support on this especially with what we’ve gone through with court etc. and now she’s just like “mommy stop talking about it the babies aren’t here yet and all you do is talk about the babies and how excited you are‼️“
Don’t get me wrong I do my hobbies with my children:: watch the TVs and movies with them That they want, when they want but most of the time they rather be by themselves. for the most part my daughter only requires my attention if she want something or wants to go outside and play soccer or something else like that and it’s kind of hurtful and saddening. I know they’re going up in the very independent people now but as I said before a part of what brought me to this community was trying to find comfort and solace as my children move away from me. I don’t know why, but currently I just feel empty. I’ve felt it before-no, incomplete- about this time last year because I didn’t have custody of the kids and always came ho to an empty house. So now My 4 1/2 year-old well he’ll be five in two months so my five-year-old is probably the only person who consistently partially acknowledges me (aside from my daughter when she’s feeling needy- that is the best way I can describe it lol ) and essentially speaking I don’t want to go back to a dark negative place. I have been to the point of deep depression before and don’t want to go there again. So this therapy hobby new love I’m hoping will be my healing completion and something me and my daughter can bond over like we initially planned when the babas actually get here. I think she’s lost interest Soley because the babas’ things are here; clothes no pacifiers yet bottle knickknacks accessories; but not the baby. so it’s just like “I don’t care until they get here “ when it comes to my daughter. Which is OK and I understand but I have nobody to talk to -no offense to you ladies LOL- but in person, face-to-face, someone else around me with common interest would be nice. I do talk to my aunt, the one who wanted to toddler doll LOL, but she’s got so much going on that we rarely talk now.
I really just currently feel empty and incomplete. Has anyone else felt like this or is it just me? Sorry to lay all this out on you ladies I just need to get it off my chest
Also before I forget I have been having baby fever for the past year so that may also be playing a part in all these emotions