As this year winds down I reflect on how incredibly good God has been to me.
Even though…
We lost Chucks dad.
My dad is slowing down tremendously and it’s heartbreaking to watch this strong proud man becoming so feeble and more child like.
Chucks brother had a heart attack…and survived!!!
Here on the compound we have all but 2 had covid v and un-v alike.
I have fought with lethargy and depression as I have recovered.
Many in our neighborhood and church have had covid and some have died.
But…
I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I’ve committed unto him against that day!!!
God is good all the time…in the valley…this stupid covid valley…going on 2 years now …and on the mountain top.
My joy does not come from my surroundings…that would be happiness…I need joy more than happiness.
My life has been so blessed and God has been with me every day…
Days when I just wanted to sit in bed and days when I made myself get up…go outside and look around at what beauty and wonder is around me…
even just in my own yard!!!
I love the psalms when I am troubled, worried or sad…
They remind me I am not alone and that I am LOVED!! 
Psalm 43:5
Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him.
Psalm34:18
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
I want the old optimistic energetic me back…but I think covid killed her 
My plan is to take one baby at a time and go from there…I am old…and tired…
I will just keep on keeping on and keep my eye upon the eastern sky!!! 