I am sorry the feedback made you feel so bad. I am not a person who retains data well so I canāt say I remember this happening or what was said, just sorry it made you feel bad.
I personally donāt mind feedback, I have made all the mistakes, I am an artist but painting reborns was a learning curve and not something I ever imagined doing, I a personally grateful for the āOh my those eyebrows are painted in the wrong directionā comments, I needed them to grow, not everyone does.
I was an annoying know-it-all when I got here, I illustrate, I know how to paint, I thought I could helpā¦not so much, still a little embarrassed. Vinyl is strange thing to paint on for sure.
Totally get the frustration with someone buying a baby and reselling for more. In a way itās cool but in a way I feel kinda gross about it, and not giving credit, not cool at all (most especially if they use your photos).
Many of us donāt sell for as much as we are worth, I think artists in general never make what they are worth, we work hard for little but I think people see creative work as hobby or play and not ārealā labor. Not sure that will ever change.
You have to get real with your inner critic, again not easy to do. I am horrible at it myself, that voice is loud, I know everything I could have or should have done better, I doubt and double doubt myself all the time and I undersell my work for all kinds of reasons. I think I would rather it make someone happy than be sitting here in my studio waiting for profit. Not a great business model.
Glad you are back, maybe a break is all you needed. I know I canāt tell someone how to think or feel but part of being a creative is learning to let it roll off you, it isnāt personal. It can feel like absolute shite, I get it, been there. I get a little miffed when someone low balls a fairly priced doll and if I pass they insult me, let me know all the bills they have, medical issues, the anxiety I am causing because I wonāt work for less, tell me I am greedy and they can get a doll just like this on amazon for 109.00.
Grrrrrā¦that is a big ol poop in my morning oatmeal.
I guess we just have to have thicker skin, humans are complex and strange creatures, and these are some crazy times.
Gotta say painting babies is damn relaxing if nothing else, and depending on your health insurance it is much cheaper than therapy or happy pills.