I’ve just spent 5 hours on painting my second try at my first baby. And I’ve ended up with this.
That leg in front is Faith’s unpainted (stripped) leg. Isaac looks exactly the same, except with ten thousand bits of dust and lint stuck all over him even though I made sure to turn the fan off so nothing would be blowing around. His creases look like dirt, his lips look like gunked up lip gloss, and his skin looks exactly the same as when I started.
I’m done. I’m just done. This isn’t fun or fulfilling or satisfying. This is frustrating, and disappointing, and I’m so angry and upset with myself for being so incredibly bad at this. The whole point of this was to be a positive creative outlet, and instead I just keep thinking how stupid and awful I am.
So I’m going to hang on to the acrylic paints I bought (not that anyone would want them since they’re the Liquitex Basics cheapy line), but I think I’m going to sell Isaac, Faith, and Madison. It’s either that or I put them together as-is, pale and ghosty. (I did think that maybe I could just hit them with a flat layer of spray paint and have really dolly-looking babies, but I hate to do that to them.) I really wanted Kimber, though. She’s the first kit I bought, back when I didn’t think I’d ever be able to afford an already-made baby, so she was going to be the one I made myself. It’s pretty clear to me that I’m never going to be able to do that because I have absolutely no skill at this. I’ve got the kit, the eyelashes, and the eyes for her, so I’m going to try to save up to have someone else paint her, so I don’t ruin her.
I can’t face listing them right now in the For Sale thread, but be thinking if anyone’s interested in BB Faith, BB Madison, or BB Isaac. They just don’t deserve the torture I’m putting them through.