I’ve been sort of MIA for a while. Life continues to throw curve balls my way and we could use some prayers.
I was divorced from my ex who cheated for 2 years hen kicked me out, in January. I met someone who I though was a great guy last summer a couple months after the ex tossed me out. In Hindsight I should have stayed single. We dated for a while and things were great. He claimed to be a good Christina man and I beleive him. Then I became pregnant and he changed. He proposed in March despite his changed behavior and coldness. He convinced me to take lower paying and less stressful job since I would be moving in with him the end of this month. I trusted him completely so I did just that. I had been moving stuff into his house for months with his help. Then four days ago he ruined our world. He decided he no longer wanted us in his home and wanted his unborn son put up for adoption. I am left with little money and no place to go as I can’t afford my rent. I’m trying to find something cheaper but rent is a lot everything. He has bailed and wants nothing to do with us (my two children ages 5 and 3 whom call him step dad and call his kids their step siblings). All four kids have bonded together and were excited to become a family. The kids had shared rooms set up and a baby nursery ready to go.
His parents who pay for his massive half million dollar home are backing him. He fooled everyone into thinking he was some great guy. He also says he does not care how I feel. He told me to leave him alone.
Yesterday I had the flu all day and almost went into labor due to dehydration. Today I got into a car accident after someone pulled out in front of me. They ripped my front bumper off. Then they came up to my window and called me a “dumb Effing C word” in front of my kids and they threatened to beat me. Tbey said we don’t care if you’re pregnant, you need your A beat!
And now I’m stuck with a grand in repairs.
I feel like life is just going down hill. What’s left? What else will happen? I can hardly keep moving. I feel like my feet are stuck in cement while a bus is coming my way and I can’t move. Why does bad keep being drawn to me? I don’t understand.
Maybe prayers would help? I just need this insanity to stop. Please pray we can afford to buy a home and not lose it and that I’ll keep my job through all of this. I have no one to help. It’s just me. I’m scared I’ll lose my kids and be homeless.